Jesus replied, "You do not realise now what I am doing, but later you will understand."
— John 13.7 (NIV)
We are so keen to make sense of our circumstances and existence that being left with uncertainty or confusion is avoided where possible.
In faith we learn to live with mystery. The human ego reacts against this, always wanting to structure a narrative, ascertain the facts, create a sense of control.
Jesus calls us to hand over our struggling and striving, and invites us to rest in his peace. The narrative will come. We will look back and notice patterns, stepping stones, that enable us to make sense of that which, when in the midst it, seemed unfathomable.
This becomes possible for us when we trust not only that God's loving presence is always available to us, but that Jesus has gone ahead and is already waiting for us in whatever unfathomable or surprising circumstances await us.
give us strength to trust in you
and discernment to look back on our lives
and see where you have been at work in us.